Nobody Won
By Sue Greenwald
In the early 2010’s, I had an extremely vivid vision. In it, I was a German officers wife during WWII. I don’t know who my husband was, but he had a position of power. We lived in a nice house, but there were always guards and other military people around the area, so I was never free to come and go as I wished. My recollection is that all of the officers houses were grouped into one big neighborhood, and well-guarded. I think there was a fence around them all, with a gate at the road entrance, so the families would be safe from attack. I recall that I felt trapped there, without privacy.
I did not support the war. I didn’t believe in all the hate and propaganda that was presented to the people, but I was trapped. I always had to keep my opinions to myself, my expression neutral, and be extremely careful that nobody knew my true feelings. Since I was female and was always being observed, I had to act as if I supported the Germans in the War, and all their military decisions, even though I did not want war or anything that went with it. I was also much more intelligent than the men gave me credit for, but women weren’t consulted or listened to very much at that time.
In this particular vision, I knew that trouble was coming to where we were. I’m not sure how I knew, but I felt an urgent need to escape! The fear that I felt was real.
I’m not sure if I saw some confidential information, got a phone call, knew intuitively, or what. I needed to get out of that area, to get myself and my kids to safety. Quickly! However, I was only a female, and had no authority. I dressed up, and had the children well dressed, as if we were just going on an urgent errand. I was full of fear, and used my husband’s influence and reputation to secure a car and driver to escape the attack that I somehow knew was coming.
I commanded that the car take us to a different location, and made up some lie to have my request followed. This alone was a bold move, as I had no authority. I only got as far as I did because of who my husband was. The driver questioned me a few times, but I was adamant and threatened him with my husbands wrath if he didn’t drive us. I could have been stopped right there, but proceeded with as much boldness and authority as I could muster up. I settled my 2 children in the back of the car, and knew that we were in great danger. Both kids were between 4 and 6 years old or so. I knew that getting them away quickly was the only way to save them. We left with nothing, so once out of that area, we’d have to start over again.
I acted very calm and in control. In this vision, I felt paralyzing fear. I commanded the driver to drive us out, and got in the car. I had to repeat my request a couple of times, with firmness, and threatened the driver. We made it through the gates, drove just a short while, and then giant explosions went off all around us. That’s it. I don’t think we lived.
This was very vivid and realistic, where I could see the textures and fabrics of our clothes, and other specific details. We wore wool tweed types of coats with buttons on them. Our shoes with leather, not made with modern materials. In this vision, I felt the extreme fear, and the feeling of being entrapped. There was also great sadness because of our deaths, and because the war caused endless suffering and pain.
In war, nobody wins.